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Sunday, February 27, 2011

How Did I Get Here?

Nine months ago today, my life changed dramatically and irreversibly. One way was joyous, and is reflected in her name, my daughter Emeline Joy was born. After several emotional years my husband and I, finally, became parents. Emeline was the realization of a dream I'd had for what felt like forever. Like millions of other parents I had very distinct ideas of how it would be. And (shockingly!) I soon figured out raising a tiny, virtually incomprehensible human was nothing like I planned. 


I know that many of the challenges I have faced over the last nine months are not unique. However, they feel slightly more complex and daunting than the "typical" adjustment to parenthood because I am literally going at it blind. 


Losing my vision was certainly not part of my plan - birth, life, or otherwise. However the birth of my daughter will always be explicitly linked with the loss of my sight. The medical story of how this happened is long, complicated, and will be described in detail in further posts. The bottom line is that I am now legally blind. 


Sometime last August I was referred to the Michigan Commission for the Blind,(MCB) an organization that is providing me with continuous support as I navigate my new world as visually-impaired. They are committed to assisting me in the adjustment of my vision loss. Additionally, they also reassure me that while my life has been altered, it does not have to be compromised.  However, while I love a "can-do" attitude as much as the next guy, I am not entirely convinced yet. Time will tell.


So where am I? Tangibly, I am currently sitting in a hotel room in Kalamazoo, Michigan, which is the temporary home of the MCB Training Center. I will be here Monday - Friday for at least the next four weeks. While I am here I will be learning personal adjustment skills and adaptive technologies that will prepare me for returning to work, and of course for my most important role, being a mom. 


Needless to say, being away from Emy will be the most challenging aspect of my stay in Kalamazoo. (Although sharing a hotel room with a stranger for a month might be a close second.) However, I will stick it out, and will be writing about my stay, the nitty-gritty details of the medical traumas that brought me here, as well as anything else that might be on my mind. (Fair warning: I'll probably mention how much I miss my daughter a million times, and may even mention missing my husband once or twice.) 


Thank you for coming on this journey with me. Your support and encouragement means so much to me. 

13 comments:

  1. I'm so proud of you Christy! I'll be reading each and every word, including the bazillion times you mention missing Emy (I'll be counting, too). Sharing a hotel room for a month, huh? Good thing I don't remember you snoring...and you're quite neat. You'll be just fine! Miss you, thinking of you every day :)

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  2. Awesome, Christy. You are in my prayers! Stay strong, girl!

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  3. Your courage is inspiring Christy! What an amazing person you are :) I love that you're blogging this and I hope it helps you feel as though you have a connection while you're away during the week.

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  4. We love you and are behind you ONE HUNDRED PERCENT!

    ...but you knew that.

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  5. Love your blog and first note! Thinking of you always! Much love!

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  6. I'll be following your progress on your blog, and wish you the best of luck!

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  7. How inspiring you are. Can't wait to share this adventure with you thru your blog! Hugs and love to you. ps.... do you know how to short sheet a bed???

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  8. I love the idea of blogging your experience! I will be tuning in daily! Best of luck. My prayers are with you!

    Janel

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  9. Christy, I love the title of your blog ~ perhaps the title of a future book? Please know that you are in my family's thoughts and prayers as you embark on your journey.

    Wishing you strength in the days ahead,
    Joan Brezina

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  10. Hi Christy - it's Barb's mom Lin. I think of you often and want you to know my prayers are with you. You are a strong woman, I am so proud of you. You do what you have to do not only for yourself, but for your husband and beautiful daughter. None of us plan the path our lives sometime go but it is the way we accept that's important. If you need Barb and I, we are there. xo, mama Lin

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  11. Wonderful idea to blog your experience. We can all learn a lesson that life is full of many surprises and that we should count our blessings every day. You are loved and we are with you every step of the way. We will be praying for you, Josh and Emy.

    Love,
    Bryan, Yvonne & Claire

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  12. Christy, I am so impressed by your courage to go through this program and to share your journey with all of us. I loved reading your first post and I look forward to all the rest. Good luck to you and stay strong. Much love to you and your family!!
    Love,
    Jamie

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  13. Thinking of you and sending strength with tears in my eyes. You are SO strong. I'll be following your journey...thank you for sharing it with those who love you most!
    ~Lindsay (Wallace :)

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